Traditions

Its my day off and I just came back from a cooking class, learning about Italian cooking... I used to burn water but now I'm learning how to cook.... I fried eggs last week!!! Heehaw that was fun. There was some guy there that winked at me.... why do people assume I'm gay just because I'm in a cooking class and that I am graceful and dainty as Susie describes me. When I was in my hometown, high-school jocks would tie me up and have me watch porn on tv.... their idea of a joke. Sometimes they'd leave me there while they went off drinking the latest batch of moonshine. When I was alone watching the porn (I hated it at first but eventually just grew to accept the images which were neat... the women were beautiful and the men were bigger than me) then there would be one of the star football players coming in and turning off the screen and asking me for a kiss. "What the fuck do you want?" I'd ask, not believing my ears. He'd be nicer to me when we were alone and ask again while stroking my hair with his hands and apologizing for the inconvenience of being in this position.... "its tradition, you know." I'd tell him I wasn't gay and he'd laugh and untie me and let me go and say I was in the closet, but it was ok.... he'd wait.... Every year during my high school days it was the same....

Military training for an officer: more porn for me, being tied up making sure I was a man.... they measured my hard-on to make sure I was straight. Then the drill sergeant would bring me to his office and claim he knew I was faking and offering to bring me to some gay bar as his date in the next town. Again I said I was straight, he said to me: "the military has its traditions but if you come out of the closet maybe we can change Washington's mind for our cause"
I admit, I may not be very masculine and I may even like what girls "traditionally" like but I still find girls beautiful and guys uninteresting.... traditions are very strict; if you don't follow the traditional male formula, then you must be gay.... maybe that's why that guy in cooking class winked at me.... I guess even gays can assume, at least this one isn't tying me up or tries to intimidate me by rank.

Traditions... why have them at all?